I sit here staring at the screen,
The light, it hurts my eyes
But even as I sit here, thinking
I know that I will not cry.
I’m so confused right now
I don’t know what to say
I just know that it seems strained
Between you and me today
I don’t know what it was
That made things change
Because I didn’t really notice
This seems so very strange
It wasn’t until just today
When it really came to my attention
And I just don’t know anymore
If there’s anything I should mention
My own theories are rather basic
And I don’t know if they apply
I just know that it’s sad to think about
It’s sad to sit and wonder why
Why are you so distant?
You feel so far away
What is going through your head?
Is there something you don’t want to say?
Did I push you away
Without even really knowing it?
Did I send too many mixed messages
Or does the shoe just not fit?
We get along alright
And I’d like to think that I know
Just where we’re standing now
And where it is we might go
I’m just trying to figure out
What you think of me now
Because I feel as if we’ve lost
Something we had, somehow
You still give me hugs most days
And still talk to me, too
But recently, that’s gotten pushed aside
And I wonder: what did I do?
Is it just the schedules not matching up
Or is it something else?
Is it something unrelated?
Tell me so I can stop blaming myself
Looking back upon it now
I can watch it in my mind
The distance slowly growing
I can follow the signs.
What I can’t seem to see
Is when it all began
Was it when we got in that argument?
Or was it after that was buried in sand?
Was it when I said that I wanted
More than what we have?
Or was it before that even?
Perhaps I should be glad
I don’t know anymore
Just what should I think?
Because everything coming so quickly
I can barely stop to blink
I’m not going to sit and wait for you
To decide to make a move
So you better be quick on your feet, luv
And get into your groove
You aren’t without competition
There are others that I like
And if you don’t hurry up a bit
Well, I’m not going to wait for you to bite.
It matters more what you do
Not just what you say
And if you won’t go for it
I’m smart enough to walk away.