Monday, March 30, 2009

Dear God

I know you might be busy
there's lot of things to do
But please, when you get a minute
could you let me come talk to you?
I've been having some problems
seizures, apathy, and stuff
and I guess that all me and my mom know,
just isn't enough.
These seizures really scare me,
despite how I seem so calm
i know it can't be high on your list
but please let me know if your touch will be a soothing balm.
I just want this problem to stop, God
to stop right in its tracks.
I don't know why I have it,
I want to be able to have it never come back.
So please help me this one time
So I can be better again.
Please just help, help this time
be my eternal friend.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Us Against The World


Keep them away
Keep them at bay
the just don't understand
they don't care to offer a hand
Ward them off
don't let them think you're soft
Take every hit without a cry
you know they're living one big lie
ignore the boys, the adults, the girls
know that it's us against the world.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Fallen Angel


Alone and helpless
there she sits,
a fallen angel,
among the grit.
Her wings are gone,
her halo faded
on the earth,
life's become complicated.
She fell in love,
a forbidden thing,
and came to care
for a lower being.
So she's banned from Heaven,
cursed to fall.
She fell from the sky,
answered gravity's call.
Alone and helpless
there she lies,
a fallen angel,
slowly she dies.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Princess of Darkness

People run, I hear them scream
they don't know that I too, dream.
My dreams are dark, and theirs are light
If they knew me, they'd never come out at night.
I dream of taking over the world anew.
I dream of killing, of me and you.
I dream of horses, stallions spirited and dark
I dream of never hearing the morning lark.
I'm the Princess of Darkness, against the Light.
I'm the Daughter of Evil, the Queen of Fright.
They never know what to do,
they'll always run from me and you.
Stay with me now, join my side
The Light is more than any of us can abide.
Join the darkness and know the truth
We are cold, evil, mean spirited and aloof.
I'm the Princess of Darkness, against the Light
I'm the Daughter of Evil, the Queen of Fright.

Monday, March 16, 2009

May His Darkness Embrace Me

I walked slowly through the forest, my eyes brimming with tears, my green gaze focused on the forest floor. Two days. Two nights. Forty-eight hours had passed since he had left. Brian Scott, the only man I had ever loved in my too-long life, had left. Tears streaked down my face, and I knew that my dark makeup streaked my cheeks with it.

I didn't care. 'I don't care.' The words forced themselves through my mind, and I tried to force them from my throat, but I choked instead. Stumbling, I fell against a tree, and coughed, falling back into memory.

-"Titania?" His deep voice echoed through my mind, and I jumped, turned and smiled as my eyes caught sight of him. Handsome as ever, Brian ran a hand nervously through his dark hair. His nearly black eyes stared at me.

"What?" I asked, embracing him. He wrapped his arms only briefly around me, before pushing me away to look at me.

When I saw the look on his face, I knew there was something wrong. My smile faded as he began speaking. "We can't be together."

"W-what?" I stuttered, pulling away from him. "Why?"

"I'm the son of a demon, Titania. That changes things." He avoided my gaze.

I glared. "So? I'm a fallen angel. What's it matter?" I reached out for him, but he avoided me again.

"Please, Titania, let go! Just let go. It'll never work." He turned and walked out the door without another word.

I stared after him, going into what could only be described as shock. "Brian?" I called tentatively. There was no answer. And slowly, I realized he was gone.-

I woke up again, and stormed on. How could he even think that would ever change how I felt? I stomped out into a field, filled with daisies and flowers, and in the distance, I could feel the energy gather and swirl, forming the beginning of a tornado. My auburn hair swirled around my shoulders, and I shivered a little as I threw my arms back a little, lifting my chin.

I fell to my knees. "You promised me forever, Brian!" I screamed out to the sky, knowing that he could hear me. "Forever..." I whispered, slumping, and then I let myself fall to the ground. For a moment I lay there, and then I forced myself up. I stared at the forming tornado, and growled, forcing my long unused magical prowess into a rogue sort of order. The swirl of black tightened, and then ripped into the ground.

I reveled in the glory of disaster.

Another I Feel...


Amazement
that I've found someone like you.
Confusion
yea, I still don't know what to do.
Joy
Because you're steady in my life
Pain
Love cuts my heart, like a knife
Surprise
How can you always be so calm?
Optimistic
You're presence is a soothing balm.
Afraid
that you'll decide to leave.
Scared
that you won't believe.
Supported
In the middle of life's river, you're my rock
Selfish
I can't wait until we can stop the clock
Affection
more than ever before
Love
I love you so much it rocks my core.

Friday, March 13, 2009

What's in A Tear?


What is truly in a tear? I'll tell you what's in mine.

rejection, fear, strife, and stress
feelings of hate, and unworthiness

the wish that it all was just a dream
the horrid, horrid, need to scream

confusion, hiding behind bars
the wish that I could hide my scars

the misunderstandings, and all the wrongs
the feeling that I'll never be strong

all the loss, and all the gain
all the hated, unwanted pain

feelings that I don't know how to stop
wondering when they'll reach the top

the knowledge I don't want to share
the wish that I just didn't care.

the apathy, the guilt, and the shame
the knowledge that I'm the one to blame

the slow agony of my breaking heart
the silent wish that we'll never part

the feeling that I'm not up to par
the knowledge that happiness is so damn far

the guilt I feel because of lust
the feeling that I'm not worth the trust

the rage I feel because I cannot help
the pitiful feeling of being a whelp

contempt, anger, disappointment and pride
the knowing that I'll be denied.

and the wish that I could disappear
that is what is in my tears.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I feel

I feel...
Confusion
because I don't know what to do.
Fear
of the unknown; of you.
Happiness
that you are in my life
Sadness
because of all the strife.
Anger
because I feel incompetent.
Love
Because I think you're heaven-sent.
Determination
I'm too stubborn to give up
Apathy
because I don't feel like I'm enough.
Hate
for myself, falling apart.
Pity
for those who broke my heart.

But most of all I feel...

Confusion
I don't know how far I want to go.
Fear
I'm not sure if I want to say "no."

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

my lover is a werewolf.


My lover is a werewolf. I stared at the half wolf, half human thing before me, and then sighed. I always knew there was something odd about him. Me, I was just human. At least, I think I'm just human.

"You aren't running?" Kale frowned at me, grey ears going back to hide among his fur.

A sigh escaped me. "What use would that be?" I sat down, and he took a ginger step towards me. "I'm not gonna run screaming from you okay? Come here!" I snapped, tired of his cautiousness. I'd been in love with him for over five years now, did he seriously think him being a werewolf would change that much?

His voice was a deep growl as he sidled up to the armchair I was in. "Tacita..." He crouched down, no longer towering over me. "This changes everything. We can't stay together-"

I sprang back to my feet as he said that. His head still came to my shoulder. "What? Why not? You might bite me? So? Why?! I don't want to leave you!" I flung myself at him, falling to my knees and burying my face into the fur of his chest. It was rather comforting, like using a familiar dog as a pillow.

Hesitantly, his arms came around me, wrapping me in warmth. "I'm in this form for almost a week..." his argument was weak.

"So? Kisses are over rated!" I snapped, clinging tighter to his muscled torso.

He sighed. I was winning. "We're going to sit on the couch, watch tv and we'll figure this out tomorrow, okay? I'm too tired to think right now." I stood, pulling him to the couch, where he settled himself, and then pulled me down in front of him, his clawed hands resting around my wast. Muzzle close to my ear, he whispered. "I love you."

I turned to look at his amber eyes. "I love you too, no matter what shape you take." And then I turned back to watch the television, curling into his fur until I was comfortable.

Him being a werewolf would not break our love apart. I wouldn't let it.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

War


There's been a war going on
And we all know that it's wrong.

A day hasn't past when I
haven't wondered how long this would last.

We've got a new president,
and some think he's heaven sent.

But look and see, bitches
Not much has changed, out there in the ditches.

Over a million people...dead.
Yet here we Americans sleep, warm in our beds.

There's a million people dead, we know
a million more, the motherfucker knows

Two million people gonna die, before we end the war
a million more, the mother fucker knows!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Opposites attract

An angel and a devil can still love each other. Anything can work, if people work at it. Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about. Besides, if you can't get them out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there.

I love you


Being here with you
Has nothing to compare it to.

The love I feel can't be denied,
nor can the feeling I hear in your sighs.

I love you more than the universe can hold
and I wish you could truly understand my mind's mold.

But you're so blind, sometimes, it seems
When you think that you hold more love for me.

I know it's not true
Because I know how much I love you.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

First Anniversary


Twelve whole months, baby,
One whole year.
I've finally found,
someone to hold dear.
I've had people say that
I'm only a kid and it's only puppy love
that we're too young, and it's not right,
but I know what we've got is love.
True love,
not just something small,
it's something big,
something tall,
I love you I do,
I will always love you
I just hope
you'll always love me too.
First anniversary,
Wow, a big deal
and with a dozen roses
our love you have
sealed so keep it that way,
never change baby
keep it this way
for you and for me.